Here is another POTD … that got stuck..here it comes to the front.. after being locked away for days… SINCE JULY!
Things are shifting for me..it’s not a big shift..maybe just a baby step..but feeling more confident that I will be able to get through this.. which is a different place for me. My beautiful husband, that loved me so deeply and tenderly, I feel him guiding me to a more happier place..I am finally getting to the place of trust..
Trusting ….that I’m taken care of.,
trusting ……that I don’t have to figure out what to do..
just accepting…….. what God puts in front of me and living one day at a time.
It is filled with so much grace and beauty. It feels like the greatest adventure..
Just allowing and accepting.. my only things on my To Do List..
-Amazing and mind blowing..
Thanking God each day.. he wakes me up.. and say, “Okay, God…what’s on my plate?
Show me the way…. Just like you did….for JESUS”
It’s great to have someone who can hold space for the challenges we all face. 💪🏻 If you find it It’s rare. It really is the little things that make the biggest differences. Little acts of kindness.. and acts of caring in a consistent manner. I have found for myself these little acts have helped me get through the mental hurdles I was facing. Things, like just having my sister text me every morning.. a simple text..of..”I love you..Have a wonderful day ☀️..” – This helped me while I was all alone while I was founding a new foundation. And I could find my faith. It pulled me out of the mental loop of no one cared.. Which is a death spiral 🌀 that is hard to pull out of. It’s easy to think you’re worthless It’s easy to think the world will never know if you leave. So I started doing acts of kindness myself… I heard the poet Rachel Kahn say, “the meaning of the sweetness is I’m fighting for my life.” This, my friend, is so true.. When every moment feels like eternity.. and all the advice you receive is “just get over it”. It is SO easy to discount my feelings. So I locked myself up.. I shut the world out.. I went into hermit mode to finally get out . of the prison I built. the one of my shoulds and my shame ..finally I got brave and I looked them right in the face.. I recognized my compromises.. the things I did to fit in. .and I finally gave myself the love, compassion, and the grace.. I have always been craving.. And it seemed … no one would give. SO NOW Alone doesn’t mean I'm lonely anymore. And speaking up doesn’t mean all people shut the door. And being different is fun. .and people enjoy unique but finding someone that understands the struggles I went through sometimes is really hard So I appreciate everyone of you who offered a hand up to help me to get through the toughest time of my life. I'm letting go of the people of my past.. who drained me and finding new friends that return my energy. And it finally feels good.. to be me.. And now, I speak sweetly to me, instead of just to others. I try to give myself compliments every day. "Like wow, You look gorgeous!" (even though I have been hanging out in my PJs --for days) (Secretly ..I really am- a Moon Goddess..(I found out accidently) that only wears nightgowns and a robe ...shhh... don't tell anyone. I know, AMAZING!) But I’m still surprised when people tell me how awesome I am. I say, “Who, me? What am I doing? I’m just being me! Really not doing a thing..just being.” But, everyone of you.. sweet people, sharing yourself with a smile.. You are blazing a trail.. For all of us to follow, and I appreciate you. and I appreciate your kindness. Thank you for being you. Thank you for caring. God bless you. 🙌🏻🙏🏻 I cherish each and one of YOU! ❤❣ Have a wonderful day! ☀
I love you sweet friends!🙌🏻❤❣
XOXOXOXXOX
Until next time,
Love❤,
ME
God Bless you Joy!
I love you! 💕❤️ 🥰